I was always of the belief that to be religious was to be spiritual. I know much better now, the below quote really had my inner self saying YES, YES, YES! Many of us grew up with the fear of God instilled in us, looking back that was very counter productive. Fear is not an emotion that is in accordance to God’s energy, the creator is only of love and light. We have nothing to fear if it’s coming from God and his universe.
I am of the belief that any organized religion is the kindergarten level of spirituality. When you have nothing to believe in you need to start somewhere right? But with time or with difficult situations in life you start to question everything you have been taught or what you believe in. My grandparents would say, “You do not question God or his teachings” but I had questions! This has always been me, wanting to understand things thoroughly enough so that it made sense to me or else I just wouldn’t subscribe to it.
In my tweens I already started to lose my faith. My parents had divorced in the early 90’s when it was still very taboo to do so. It was then that I finally accepted they were never getting back together again. Up until then I would still pray that some day it would happen and I could go back to my normal life. My life never went back to normal, if anything that’s when the rollercoaster started taking me for some loops.
Through the rollercoaster of life I still had faith in a greater being and that this could not be it, this life. I believed that there was something greater and really started to separate the story of Jesus and God subconsciously. I enjoyed the energy of being at church when I went but didn’t like the approach of our priests or in the way they were communicating their messages. God above all yes but not the church above all, at least that’s how I was feeling. Let me give you a couple of examples, when a priest said in front of the congregation that they are doing much needed renovations and they have the money but it was in our pockets. Or when I went to get married by church for the first time with my child in hand and I was asked by the priest, “well who’s this then?” Of course I knew exactly where he was going with this but I answered just as ignorantly, “well I didn’t just pick up some random child on the way here, he’s our son”. His reply…. “oh ya that’s right, this generation does things backwards”. A man of God who preaches about not judging others stood there and did just that!
So it’s safe to say my inner self was detaching from my religion for many reasons. It wasn’t just because of what was manifesting in front of me that was making me go the other way, it was much bigger than that. I didn’t know then, but now I know that my inner self (my soul) knew that spirituality spans much further than religion. In order for me to grow spirituality I had to detach from what I was taught so I could learn the truth, I was graduating spiritual kindergarden!
Once I understood that I could still be very spiritual without all these rules to make me feel bad, I could continue my relationship with God. That is exactly what happened; once I had accepted that yes there is in fact more than the story of Jesus, the flood gates opened. God started to really show me where I came from and why I was here. I have never felt so sure about anything in my life… you can not deny what you know to be true. What you have seen and experienced for yourself no man can take away, even if they tried.
So my friends, I will leave you with this to think about and digest. Maybe this has answered some of your own unanswered questions or maybe now you just have more unanswered questions. I am here to help talk through it if you need and provide clarity where I can. Know that this life is all part of our individual soul’s journey, we are all at different points with different lessons to learn while we are here during this visit to earth and nothing is exactly as it seems. I say this visit on earth because yes we can in fact come back, many times if we choose. Something I never believed before because in Catholicism we are taught not to believe in reincarnation. I will leave that topic for another blog….
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